I very recently happened upon Amy’s (business and) blog Lemon and Raspberry. It is a pretty wonderful, inspiring blog that I am really enjoying.
On Wednesday, Amy posted about not having as much blogging time as she would like, due to busy-ness. So, she set a prompt challenge for five posts. (Go see, I’ll wait.) I’ve been trying to figure on writing some more content, so I thought this would be a great challenge to take. Easy peasey, right? Just five posts. Once a week. I can do that.
(Image @ Lemon and Raspberry)
What you have learned from ________
Maybe what you have learned from your parents or your kids or living in this new town. Maybe what you have learned from doing Project Life for a year, or blogging for 5 years or a lifetime of photography. Maybe what you have learned from the last book you read, or the last movie you watched. Tongue-in-cheek or earnest and sincere – this prompt could go either way.
What have I learned from <blank>?
My <blank> is a reaction to an action. It’s a lack of communication. It’s a giant misunderstanding. It’s been hurtful and difficult. It’s a brush that has painted a much bigger picture.
So. What have I learned from <blank>?
- That I am a good person.
- That I am very much worth the happiness I am experiencing.
- That I have come a long way, especially in the last few years. In terms of confidence, communication and interpersonal relationships.
- That I don’t deserve to be treated this way. That THD doesn’t deserve to be treated this way. That my (wonderful) sister doesn’t deserve to be treated this way.
- That I can’t accept this kind of treatment anymore. Both because I am worth so much more and because my actions teach TLM more than my words ever will.
- That it is abuse now and has been abuse for a very long time.
- That I have (buckets of) potential, I am talented, I am not even a little bit “average,” and you’re goddamn right I’m smart enough.
- That I am so motivated to get a handle on my personal demons and mental incapacities so that I stand a wisp of a chance of not passing them on, or perpetuating the cycle.
- That no, I actually am, in fact, entitled to be treated with kindness and respect and that I do not need to be so thoroughly degraded.
- That I take responsibility for my part in all of this and that my part did not warrant any of this mistreatment. My part may have inspired a pain that breaks my heart, but did not inspire this. This is altogether so much bullshit it’s actually scary.
- That I have an amazing support system.
- That “they” are correct: I wouldn’t tolerate this behaviour from any work relationships or friendships, why do I tolerate it from family?
- That I am not daughter-in-law to my husband’s parents, I am daughter.
- That I am loved so hard by so many amazing people and that I deserve that love.
- That I have the most amazing little dude. He brings so much joy to so many people.
- That letting go of the pain and negativity has been essential. I can’t hold on to that. It’s unfair to me. It’s unfair to my husband. It’s unfair to our son. Life is too short.
That is the silver lining here. I have learned so much from this situation. I know so much more about myself, which has absolutely bolstered my confidence. And I understand a great deal more about my family, where I stand with them now, and where I’ve stood with them in the past. This has not been an easy lesson, but I am so thankful for it. “At least I know” has been incredibly freeing.
(Image found @ Pinterest)
(Image found @ Pinterest)
(Yeah gaiz – this is in reference to several incidents. Not just the aforementioned. Several. So much bullshit.)